It's Easter Sunday and I am laying in bed thinking about this past week and how ridiculous it has been. I want today to be better and different, not just because it's Easter but because its a brand new day! I love Easter and I know all the meaning that goes into this holiday but honestly I celebrate resurrection everyday of my life when I wake up brand new. I guess that maybe with it being Easter and it being the holiday where we celebrate resurrection it has made me realize a few things. First I have not been living in this revelation for quite a while. I do not think that I have woken up once this week living like I was brand new and having a fresh start. I have dragged every issue that accumulated right in to the next day to the point where it was so heavy that getting out of bed was depressing. I could not see living life to the fullest and letting the stress go, I could only see the negative. It has been a tough week or rather tough couple of weeks. There have been moments where I am so stressed or worried that my heart literally pounds and I am panicked. I would ask myself "Is God in control"? And I would literally say "yes he is." Then two seconds later I would be freaking out again. This morning there has already challenges and I have felt that feeling of Oh My God I Give Up coming over me but really God is in control. If he has complete control and he is not dropping the ball then everything is ok. So everything is ok and I can breathe normally and have good days. I also do not have to bring everything that happened yesterday into today. Today is a brand new day and it's sunny and beautiful so far. Happy Easter!
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