Stop Trying

Lately I have heard over and over again that people are trying...or in some cases not trying. This train of thought seems to be more damaging to people than actually helpful. I have thought about this a lot and have wondered if I am just being judgmental or if I am not giving people enough credit for what they are doing but that is the problem. People are so busy trying that they have completely stopped doing. I have come to realize that in my own life I am no longer trying and I am just doing. I was not given the choice to just try. It was literally do or die. Telling someone you are trying is a safety net for you. When you are doing something that you think is wrong and you are telling people that you are trying to do what is right...that is a cop out. You are not supposed to try to be right. You are either right or you are wrong. I have had people tell me that they are "not trying" to hurt me, scare me, tell me what to do. You do not try not to hurt someone you just don't do it. You do not try to do anything, you do it. Even if you do it and it was a failed attempt just do it. Recently I have had someone tell me that they were trying and that just by telling me that they were going to try was them trying. That person almost got a  knife stuck in the jugular. That was the worst cop out that I have ever heard in my entire life and it showed what kind of coward I was dealing with. It also showed me that I had no desire to try. If that is what trying is all about then I want no part of it. Trying is for cowards. Doing is for those of us fight the battle for real. If you are not ready to fight the battle then go home and hide under your covers. If you want to come to war with me do not even say the word try. I do not want to die because you are trying. Stop trying and start doing.

Girl on Fire

I want to be a girl on fire...or woman, I'm not picky. I just know that I do not want to be sad and alone and pushed into a corner. I know that I want people to look at me and see that life has not knocked me down. I know that I am strong and I know that I am a survivor but I want to be so much more. I am not just referring to the fact that I want my physical to be super hot although I am taking steps in that direction ;) I am saying that I am so much more than what you see. In the past few months I have been told things and seen things that could have destroyed me but they did not. In the past week I have lost someone that I thought would stand by my side no matter what and that could have destroyed me but it did not. I am on fire and I am coming up stronger and better than ever. Because of the situations I am dealing with I am becoming a new me. The new me is not angry or mean or depressed. The new me is beautiful and strong and the new me has faith that the old me could never know. I want to be new everyday and by new I will be better everyday. I am not doing this on my, I am nothing on my own but the power that I have is amazing and it is life changing. I am not keeping it to myself and I am ready to change other people's lives. Everyone around me is going to be influenced in one direction or the other, my influence is going to be positive. I know what love is and I have experienced it over and over and I believe in it. I believe that love can change any situation for both people involved. If I love you or have loved you then you will never be the same. I believe in kindness and charity and hope even when it looks like someone does not deserve it. Life has never been more beautiful to me and there have never been more opportunities to love and live completely. So much is changing all around me and all of it is for the better. I am ready for life and I am ready to live it fully. I know in whom I have believed and I know what my destiny is. I know that in the end I win! So when I say I want to be a girl on fire and that I want to set the world on fire I know that I can. I have been given the ability and there is nothing stopping me.